In a Funk (& Fear)
Ever had one of those days when you're just stuck in some sort of moody funk and you can't get yourself out of it? What am I asking? Of COURSE you have--everyone has!
Well, yesterday was that way for me! I really felt physically crappy and then, on top of that, I just felt moody. Some things are bringing me down a little bit, so I just felt (and still feel a little bit) "out of sorts." I really hate feeling that way, because I'm one of those people who always harps on being positive about things; I always find the "good" in situations. But still, some days it's just hard.
And then, last night, I had been asked to do the devotional time at our Wednesday night dinner and casual church service. I talked about fear--how all humans face fear every day. We face little fears, but then also big fears. And I talked a little bit about some of the fears that I have--things like fear for my children's safety, fear for my parents' health failing, fear that I can't pay all the bills in a month. But, I said, if we were going to really live like Christians we have to LET GO of the fear; we can't live fearful LIVES. We must give those fears up! It was really like maybe I was supposed to be saying those things not just to everyone in the audience, but also to me! So, I kinda felt like I was preaching to the choir!
I shared several stories and some Bible verses that went along with the topic. My favorite Psalm is Psalm 27, and it was perfect for the night. Part of it says:
The LORD is my light and my salvation—
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the stronghold of my life—
of whom shall I be afraid?
For in the day of trouble
he will keep me safe in his dwelling;
he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle
and set me high upon a rock.
So, if you're going through any fearful times . . . or maybe even if you're just feeling a little bit moody like me . . . those verses might help you out!
At church last night, my friend Karen had the "authentic" 1981 prom dress that I was planning on using for my costume for Halloween Bunko tonight (idea here--dress, sash that says "1981 Beauty Queen," tiara, big hair). When I got home, though, I tried to zip it up and there was NO WAY it was going to fit. So, I got a bit depressed all over again. Now, what am I going to wear to tonight? I don't have the time or money to go buy an entire costume, so I'm going to frantically search the house here for something. I was really excited about that costume (it was going to be CUTE!), but now I have to find a Plan B.
Hope that didn't come off as a negative post this morning, just wanted to share where I was at. But today is another today . . . and a better day. And if I can come up with a costume idea . . . everything will be a-okay!
A Little Update-- Feeling better this afternoon (although the yucky rain outside all day is not helping!) and I have a costume plan. Yay!! I'm now going to be a Drama Queen, complete with sash, crown, feather boa, and celebrity sunglasses of my own creation. Will share some pics tomorrow! All of you blogging friends are great--you really know how to cheer a girl up!