Thursday, August 09, 2007
I have such mixed feelings today.
I just got back from taking McKenna to her first day of her sophomore year of high school.
She brims with enthusiasm and confidence and can't wait to see her friends, meet her teachers, and see what she gets to learn this year.
She is confident and pretty (wearing a cute red, retro-style dress and jewelry), but she looked at me with one lingering glance as she went in.
Yes, she's confident, but there's also a little bit of nervousness.
Will I do well this year again in my classes? Will I have friends to sit with at lunch?
And then I took Delaney to her first day of middle school.
As I dropped Delaney off, I could see her eyes mist up just a little bit.
She's so excited to go--she knows that there are so many new and fun things in store for her--but she's also nervous at the same time.
She knows that there are bigger kids there; that she has classes like she's never had before; that there are so many more students wandering around the halls.
And I think she senses that there is something more--that things are changing for her.
That she's not just a little girl anymore. She's growing up. And to her--my most sensitive child--that is a huge deal!
And here I am at home, adjusting to another year of school for two of my girls.
I'm excited because I'm much more productive and efficient when school is in session.
I'm anticipating the Fall season, which is my most favorite of all (football!!!!).
I'm looking forward to my one-on-one time with Sydney.
But, I'm also a little like Delaney and there's a little mist in my eye.
Because just look at them!
One's a sophomore, one's in middle school.
I can see it on the horizon--the indepedence, the breaking away, the spreading of wings.
I think we've raised them well so far. I can feel it in the way they talk to me, the way they handle things, the way they dream.
But, it's still so hard.
So hard to see my little girls growing up!